If you wonder how it feels
It feels like nothing
An emptiness
A whole
Never ending sadness
Zero or no emotions
Lost mojo
It feels stuck
Have you ever had your shoe stick in mud?
And your feet feel so heavy
So tiny
You wiggle and try to pull
You support your self with your other feet
Then pull
You manage…
BUT
You leave your shoe behind
You support your weight with the other feet as you try to wear your other shoe
You tie your laces
One step forward
Only this time your other feet is stuck
You look around
Your mum claps
Your Friends miles ahead
They look back questions on their faces
On your right an electric fence
On the left bricky thorns
You call out to god
Thunder
The clouds get darker
Tears in your eyes
You gather every strength in your fiber
You lift your leg
This time you fall face first
Your mum, hands akimbo
Your friends look back
Some smile
Some laugh
Some continue to walk
You get up
It starts to drizzle
You call on to god
god laughs
You walk
Your shoe starts to leak
Your socks socked
Your feet numb
You do away with the shoes
Brace your self
You take a step
And
You prick your toe
Quickly you brush it off
This time you hit a stone
Thunder
Hailstones
Your friends are long gone
Your mum seats
god laughs
‘It’s getting dark’ your inner child whispers
‘I’m cold’ teen you whispers
You give up
You swallow hard
You look down
Curse
Take a step forward
Your inner child cheers
Teen you hold on tight
You smile
You cry
You keep going
You focus on your feet
You move
The rain stops
The land gets dry
Hard
Your feet are sore
god whispers it’s only began.
Your inner child cries
Teen you punches the air
You seat
god laughs
Your friends laugh
You mum gives up
You…
You…
You!